So these are my random thoughts.
Over the past few days I got the chance to think a lot. Or let’s say over the past few weeks. I had a lot of “Life before my eyes” like moments.
Going through old photographs and memories, I realized something. Over the past year I have changed a lot. It feels like my adult life really started now. There is legal age and there is the moment you look into the mirror and realize you are not a kid anymore.
I had to re-evaluate a lot of things in my life. I started a job, the whole NCIS thing happened, I lost and gained people. I did and I am about to do more internships and I am applying for my state examination. I gained a whole new level of confidence.
Walking around this world on my own doesn’t seem abnormal to me anymore. In the end we are all alone. The mother we love might be dead in a second, the partner we have might leave us out of a sudden, the friend you had and appreciated might not be as invested in you as you are in him or her, your pet might die, another friend might move away or you lose your job, your family might start not caring about you as long as you don’t serve them well or the show you invest in might not be there anymore. Several situations can lead to depression and loneliness. It is ok to be sad. Everyone has been there. But the day comes where you have to get up on your feet again. The day comes where you don’t take the things in your life for granted anymore.
Change is the only constant in life. Change can hurt and bring joy. That is why you have to seize the moment and focus on the ones that are there. They might be gone tomorrow, but right now they are there with you. Keeping those who care close to you for as long as you can is important. Just get up and tell someone you love them. Enjoy times together. Enjoy your favourite meal cause maybe one day you may not be allowed to eat it anymore due to sickness. Never forget that things might never be the same again. Enjoy the moment as it is and remember it.
It is what I keep doing and what has kept me going ever since I was a child. There is a deep wound inside of me that keeps getting cracked open ever once in a while…ever since I was a kid. But then I look around and still find someone to hold onto. I find people that help me and that I want to help, too.
Nothing is forever. We change constantly. Change sucks, but it also can lead to amazing things. I keep trying to focus on the good rather than the bad.
5 days ago
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The GoT cast does the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge
I love them. And I love even more that Pedro nominated Lena HAHAH
For #peace in the world and Europe today in #Cologne. Even in the rain. There is way too much war and hatred out there.
#alsicebucketchallenge from #Germany #Cologne in a #Bazinga #tbbt shirt singing #therainsofcastamere #GoT style. Haha #Lannister #gameofthrones